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[Godsmack 361]

Might have to spend my lunch money.

http://www.ebay.com/...=item5aea17a30e

I want to know what you are eating for lunch!

I had to chuckle. Hope you are doing well today, bud.

I know Stefan and a few other's asked about my Tuesday. I got my request from the administrative review board. I will be allowed to stay in, and move forward towards medical retirement. Hopefully it won't take long, but I know how this process goes. Either way I am ready to deal with what I have to do.

One monkey off my back, and about four more to go.

Thanks for the support guys!!!

J

I guess I missed something. You can tell me to fuck off if you don't care to share (sometimes we like to keep our personal shit personal, and I can dig that) but I was wondering what happened?

I have been in some trouble because of certain habits I have/had, and my tendency to be a tad... aggressive is the word I'll use here. What I have read the past few days makes me believe you might have recently dealt with issues I have dealt with in the past. Alcohol, cocaine, and happy fists have gotten me in some trouble in the past. Fortunately for me I have found didtching the cocaine and buying better whiskey makes me more of a happy drunk.

Alcohol seems to be the common problem 'solver' for the moment being. Basically the run down of what has been going on is like this

-Un-certainty as to how I would be leaving the Army

-Watching my marriage fall apart

-Having other people step in to help with everything only to turn their backs for one reason or another

-Being put in a tough spot over trying to help two friends who split up because I helped the female side first since she reached out first

-Not knowing for certain where I want to move once I am out, just knowing it IS NOT back home

I have had substance issues in the past (LONG AGO) and I am doing what I have to to keep those demons gone, among other past issues. I am just finding it difficult to keep the past in the past, and the current issues are making it even more difficult. No I am not trying to be an 'emo' little bitch about it and cry like a 3 year old little girl with a skinned knee. At the same time, I am trying to vent out frustrations at the way things have turned out. I realize the boat I am in is due to situations I have allowed myself to be in and decisions I have made there of. I am not looking for sympathy. Every decision right or wrong in the long run, is one I have made on my own for my own reasons.

Now its just figuring out what all these decisions add up to, and where they will take me. It's part of the price a person pays for being a 'I wish I had not done this/that' instead of 'I wish I had taken that chance'.

J

[Godsmack 361]

And the Admin board was because my Commander thought it was better to chapter out someone who has a known history of sleep issues (DEEP SLEEPER) who cannot seem to get that shit right all the time, than to allow him to Medically retire. Add in people perceiving my accent and gestures as an attitude (Predominately Italian, and from Buffalo, NY) and it adds up to being an issue.

Sad part is I have ALWAYS gotten along well with the Combat Arms (Field Artillery, Infantry, Rangers, Special Forces) guys like we were brothers from another mother. Get me with a group of Signal pussies, or shit there of, and I am fucked.

J

[Penguin4x4 1,761]

Completely dragging ass today. Large breakfast, mid morning snack, two lunches, three gallons of water and I still came home hungry and thirsty.

[Penguin4x4 1,761]

going to be sore tomorrow

[Penguin4x4 1,761]

lets face it, everything below ze vaist is KAPUT

[dem beats 1,223]

OMG!!!! WHAT IF MY HANDS DON'T GET BETTER???? HOW WILL I PWN NEWBS???!?!?!?? 11

[ssh 924]

Training cock ups again?

[Penguin4x4 1,761]

had that International huffing today

[dem beats 1,223]

lets face it, everything below ze vaist is KAPUT

Tripple dose of psillium and you will be fine. Unless it's the other end. Then it's little blue pills.

[ssh 924]

I should have used quotes.

[dem beats 1,223]

Training cock ups again?

Cock push ups?

All you need is one!

[dem beats 1,223]

I should have used a condom.

That's what she said.

[Penguin4x4 1,761]

[Penguin4x4 1,761]

lets face it, everything below ze vaist is KAPUT

Tripple dose of psillium and you will be fine. Unless it's the other end. Then it's little blue pills.

I was referring to my legs, actually.

[dem beats 1,223]

J you are a more tha good guy. No matter what was in the past you have to leave it behind you and move on.

I really hope the marre isn't ove over... for your sake... but if it is, then that tok shall pass. Try to take up a hobby rather than a bottle. Drinking it dowm is ok sometimes, but keep it under control.

[dem beats 1,223]

lets face it, everything below ze vaist is KAPUT

Tripple dose of psillium and you will be fine. Unless it's the other end. Then it's little blue pills.

I was referring to my legs, actually.

Then not "everything". If you fan still get an erection you didn't work out hard enough. Im up to a pair of 45s on the old snake now.. just hard to fit it througb those narrow holes on olympic plates.....

[ssh 924]

Lol

[Kangaroux 47]

Guy likes his internet apparently.

http://times-news.com/local/x328559063/Police-Man-throws-cat-out-window-punches-woman

[Godsmack 361]

J you are a more tha good guy. No matter what was in the past you have to leave it behind you and move on.

I really hope the marre isn't ove over... for your sake... but if it is, then that tok shall pass. Try to take up a hobby rather than a bottle. Drinking it dowm is ok sometimes, but keep it under control.

Appreciate it brother. Unfortunately its a 'family' tradition to turn to the bottle. I do keep it together enough to where I do not drink every day, I don't drink to 'get drunk and ease the pain' or anything else. As for a hobby, lately I've been doing a lot of photography, but limited daylight and no 'set' makes that a bit of a bitch at times.

As for my marriage being over.............it is what it is, and nothing is over till it's over. But I try to see things for what they are, and only a blind man can miss the writing on the wall at this point.

J

[dem beats 1,223]

I have the same tradition in my family. Severely cut down recently though. Rough timing with my pain and all but I needed to take a step back. The sign was my tolerance. I was able to not even feel a buzz after 4-5 drinks.

4-5 pitchers of beer couldn't even get me buzzin.

[Godsmack 361]

Guy likes his internet apparently.

http://times-news.co...w-punches-woman

So tossing the cat around is ok, but we draw the line at abusing the dog?

J

[Godsmack 361]

I have the same tradition in my family. Severely cut down recently though. Rough timing with my pain and all but I needed to take a step back. The sign was my tolerance. I was able to not even feel a buzz after 4-5 drinks.

4-5 pitchers of beer couldn't even get me buzzin.

My tolerance isn't quite there. But so be it.

J

[sandt38 448]

Might have to spend my lunch money.

http://www.ebay.com/...=item5aea17a30e

I want to know what you are eating for lunch!

I had to chuckle. Hope you are doing well today, bud.

I know Stefan and a few other's asked about my Tuesday. I got my request from the administrative review board. I will be allowed to stay in, and move forward towards medical retirement. Hopefully it won't take long, but I know how this process goes. Either way I am ready to deal with what I have to do.

One monkey off my back, and about four more to go.

Thanks for the support guys!!!

J

I guess I missed something. You can tell me to fuck off if you don't care to share (sometimes we like to keep our personal shit personal, and I can dig that) but I was wondering what happened?

I have been in some trouble because of certain habits I have/had, and my tendency to be a tad... aggressive is the word I'll use here. What I have read the past few days makes me believe you might have recently dealt with issues I have dealt with in the past. Alcohol, cocaine, and happy fists have gotten me in some trouble in the past. Fortunately for me I have found didtching the cocaine and buying better whiskey makes me more of a happy drunk.

Alcohol seems to be the common problem 'solver' for the moment being. Basically the run down of what has been going on is like this

-Un-certainty as to how I would be leaving the Army

-Watching my marriage fall apart

-Having other people step in to help with everything only to turn their backs for one reason or another

-Being put in a tough spot over trying to help two friends who split up because I helped the female side first since she reached out first

-Not knowing for certain where I want to move once I am out, just knowing it IS NOT back home

I have had substance issues in the past (LONG AGO) and I am doing what I have to to keep those demons gone, among other past issues. I am just finding it difficult to keep the past in the past, and the current issues are making it even more difficult. No I am not trying to be an 'emo' little bitch about it and cry like a 3 year old little girl with a skinned knee. At the same time, I am trying to vent out frustrations at the way things have turned out. I realize the boat I am in is due to situations I have allowed myself to be in and decisions I have made there of. I am not looking for sympathy. Every decision right or wrong in the long run, is one I have made on my own for my own reasons.

Now its just figuring out what all these decisions add up to, and where they will take me. It's part of the price a person pays for being a 'I wish I had not done this/that' instead of 'I wish I had taken that chance'.

J

Well, FWIW...

Not sure how long you have been in, but you need to worry about the military and their choice with dismissal, albeit medical, honorable, or dishonorable discharge. I feel that a huge issue with that is government is trying to keep cuts in with discharges. All I can say is, while I know you are not a religious man, I am, and I will be praying for the best.

Marriage is a difficult thing. It is born of emotion, and it ends or survives in emotion. I have been married twice. My first wife was killed by a drunk driver, and my second is still with me. We have been together for as long as most people here have been alive. But it is difficult. It is a very shaky relationship. But we have always tried to work on it. What the 2 of you decide to do is between the 2 of you. But a joke I heard, and one which rings true to marriage is: Do you know why the bride smiles as she is walking down the aisle? Because she knows she will never have to give another blowjob in her life. Marriage plays hell with a sex life. I know this is an issue with you. I have dealt with this for years, and in due time things iron themselves out. Is it worth it for you to deal with these times? That is up to you to decide. But the next broad will do the same. I promise you, pussy dries up with a ring. But eventually things work out.

People are cunts. I never place my trust or faith in anyone. It may make me seem bitter or angry or resentful, but it is a fact, and at my age I have no time for games. All you can do is be truthful. Be honest and respectful. Always remember that if someone fucks you once, they will fuck you again. Never give a person wiggle room, always stand firm. But always remember, everyone will fuck you if it is better for them to do so.

Who mattered most in that relationship? Who approached you first? She did, right? If he was your bro, I could see being there for him in his situation. But like I said above, be honest and respectful. She placed her trust in you, and you moved on her word. You were trusting, and respectful. Don't fuck the person you chose to side with. That person knows you are a respectful and trustworthy person. Good for you for standing your ground, and being man enough to stick to your guns. I'll trust you if you back me. Respect is the most honorable trait a person can have, and you didn't betray that. That is why I am proud to be a Buffalonian myself. We are all about respect.

I left Buffalo over 20 years ago. I am glad I did. I love my town, I loved my people... But it is a hole, bro. Move on. Find what you want out of life and decide on your locale from there. Do what will work best for you.

And the Admin board was because my Commander thought it was better to chapter out someone who has a known history of sleep issues (DEEP SLEEPER) who cannot seem to get that shit right all the time, than to allow him to Medically retire. Add in people perceiving my accent and gestures as an attitude (Predominately Italian, and from Buffalo, NY) and it adds up to being an issue.

Sad part is I have ALWAYS gotten along well with the Combat Arms (Field Artillery, Infantry, Rangers, Special Forces) guys like we were brothers from another mother. Get me with a group of Signal pussies, or shit there of, and I am fucked.

J

I am a dago from Buffalo too. Be who you are, and fuck anyone who doesn't like it. Be yourself, as long as it is not argumentative. I am all about "fuck you" (look at my hair, my beard, my attitude), but my superiors are my superiors. I got my ass whooped if I smarted off to my elders, and my superiors. But I was also taught to be me, and be in charge, if I am given the opportunity to do so.

Hopefully some of this is good advice. I have not had it fail me yet. But you are your own man with your own problems. Hopefully some of my words might be of some help, and hopefully you will advance in life because of one suggestion I offered here.

Prayers are with you, brother.

[///M5 2,833]

If he has a boat on your lake, has he never met your little men?

Sure, but not on the boat. At his house.

Our lake is a little bit different than most you picture. Nearly 200mi of shoreline...

Which lake so I can check it out, sure sounds huge.

It's only 15,000 acres. Lake Minnetonka

[sandt38 448]

I had mini Tonka trucks...