well, i was thinking work might get a little wierd due to the weather being so extrem..... have been under 40 hours for the past 5 weeks.... one week, it took 6 days to get 30.5 hours.... trying hard for the family, but it is a challenge to even speak to those pricks... you see, the company has seperate sides, the other side, 57 hours is about a norm for a week... my last check, 58 hours for two weeks of work.... today, my son and i lernd we have no work for at least two to three weeks.... none.... thank you very little! the money that some of you have heard me mention, is like a week or so away.... so i have this ship totally crash and burn.... for now after this period is clear.... i will go back to ironwork.... back to where pride is as high as we work and the pay scale to back it... it has been a rough ride, in the end, my sacrifice will have bettered all members of my family.... currently though, i feel like a failure, broke, and humbled.... i found myself praying hard today, praying to have the strength to get over this last obstacle.... i busted my ass for this company, only to be thrown to the wolves, no regards to me or my kin....just a complete "pull the rug out from under us" approach. i really would like to show them the old chop..... let my east side roots come out..... they deserve to get a ass kicking for sure. it is a real bitch to come home and say i have no way to feed you for three weeks, if it was any different, if that money was not there, around the corner.... i would do whatever it took to make the differance...only negative comes to mind.... but iw ould not see them do without! audio has alot of lofty goals and begs of day dreaming..... it helps to step away from reality. not sure where that comes into play... but it did give me my closest brother, who encourages me to push on.... i have to openly thank chuck for always being involved with us, he gives me drive when needed most, his prayers often carry me through. i love him for all that he is. we as a team/family , IAK, are blessed to have him for sure. we will indeed step out of this, Regina and Samantha both in college, i am sure we are in the right direction , ironwork..... i hate being on the road, away from home... but if that is where the money is.... then that is what i will do... this company i work for currently, landscaping, has really made me understand that without morals and values.... the economy will continue to struggle... when even the small town approach they are capable of having is destroyed with greed, no concern for their workers..... this is by far a suicide mission for them.... sorry so long, ........ just venting....... so i decided to pawn some of my older gear today, gather what cash i could to attempt to hold ground for two more weeks.... wow, what a challenge..... no pawn shop knows this "sundown" brand..... most would not loan and the highest was $40 per amp.... saz1500D the pierce sub.... 15" got another $100...... so after paying out $20 in gas to find the highest pawn shop, i pawned away $1400 bucks of audio for $160 bucks... this will have to carry us seven for almost two weeks and keep gas in the ride for school..... not to cool i have some other odd jobs i am going to chase, and a 9 hour check coming in two weeks ..... the company i work for is self claimed an "high end, estate management company" hmmmmmm, cant even manage thier employees job security. sorry for the long rant.... it helps to spill it out.... keep your prayers up for us, as we ride this one out.... chop