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Food is for sure a problem. The anxiety is definitely a new version. It's literally just 100% unadulterated fear being dumped into my system. The pain is brutal, but not as bad as the joint pain. I just don't like not knowing or being in control of my bowel movements.

Maybe I'm particularly susceptible to that because of vegis nerve damage. Stops me up baaaaaaaaad I've heard gagging can help jump start it. Better buy a big black rubber cock and leave it next to the throne for times when I need a force multiplier.

I cannot understate the emotional toll from these "anxiety attacks". I've felt in danger for my life over an extended moment and been forced to take action against my bodies own will. This is absolutely that same intensity for long periods at a time. As in randomly stress sweating enough to need to change clothes. Combined with the pain it is full on hand shaking bad. If it was "JUST" physical pain and not absolute panic along with puking and shitting myself I wouldn't bitch too much and just go to work, but this is not conducive to my life.

What works? Complex question I have to explain what's going on. For me, this problem is causing incredible pain, pressure and constipation that eventually leads to vomiting and what I assume to be vegus and enteric nerve problems. As crippling as the pain is, the fear is worse. When something sets off a wave of pain, there is often a strong wave of absolute panic and fear. It's enough I'll gag and throw up. That in turn can fire the rest of my GI tract causing some fun results. Despite being told it doesn't help ibuprofen/naproxen help a ton. Way more than my meloxicam but all 3 need to stop for a while I think. They probably make the GI system worse. Opiates work because opiates do work. Tramadol seems to be the best for me and other with arthritis as it has some depression and energy boosting abilities. It also slows down your GI system making everything worse later. I rarely use that as constipation is one of my biggest sources of pain. In general I spend 90 min doing PT for my joints at night. I'm spending most of that on my abdomen and hips now. This allows me to eat and drink a bit and wall the next morning. I need to start getting up much earlier to do this in the morning instead and only spend 30-60 min at night.

Thanks mang. As long as I can get to work and perform through it I'll be ok.

Yeah. For GI stuff, it might be worth the trip down there.

It could be diverticulitis or maybe I'm a giant pussy, honestly, any plan of action would be a blessing. This level of pain for this many months when it goes from joints to abdomen with no break is really wearing me down. I have to miss work too. Fever plus throwing up.....

If that is the case.... I'm pretty thankful because there is a plan of attack for that. I'm running out of pain endurance other wise. Having the spear of destiny in your side every morning for a couple hours is no way to live.

Interesting twist. My autoimmune disorder may have given me the gift of crohn's, IBD or some other similar issue.

Im having the most super fun arthritis flare up. It's been super wonderful. The pity parties in throwing myself are epic.

Poast for sean killing the hop.

I LOVE speed and power but you ain't joking. Once I started messing with supersport bikes I just realized that only chasing speed keeps me from being happy.

I didn't know that there was a good pedal option that wasn't factory. Like you I want super power at the pedal. Hub just adds so much extra mass at the wheel.

Ebike sounds like what I would be happiest with too. If I see anything I'll let you know. In 4-5 years the ebike thing will be amazing. I'm amped.

That looks fun. I took you for a big air single track guy based on the mtn biking and bitch danging sleds.

You're pretty smart! The uzi with that big spring was the best ride I've ever had back then. Definitely one of my favorite rides!

Wow! I didn't know it was so swampy! Awesome stuff!

Perfect. Thanks!

Oh yikes!! The forum wouldn't load for a while.... it might be time for a new phone or this site is having issues.

I overcooked a ribeye.... it was a shame but has convinced me to buy an immersion circulator. What one do I buy? It was still yummy BTW. I used the drippings and butter bath with garlic and my BILs lemon sage while still hot on top of greens, then topped with balsamic. Made a scrumptious steak salad and rescued a medium rare ribeye.

Sean, you recently got a 4 wheeler. Why did you do that VS a traditional dirt bike?

I'm going to say something that is silly. I will not ride a Canondale or Raleigh (if they even make mtn bikes now). I had some bad experiences with those companies actually. Maybe they are better but I had some issues that could have changed the direction of my life if the accidents hadn't happened differently.

Fffffdfuuuuuuuuuuck. Yass. I'll check it.

I do that. Well, I used to. When i was training for competitions I didnt have time to chew you bogey bastid!

Overthinking it. Buy tender young greens. Dump whatever you want ontop of greens. Eat. Specifically arugula and spinach compress and wilt in a lovely way. I can smash down a cup and a half of spinach or arugula or more and fit it on a normal slice of sammich bread. That plus some tomato or whatever else you want on your sammich plus cheese and meat and dressing and the greens just taste like herbs. With that and stir frying more substantial things like book choy or cabbage it's easy to smash in 6-7 servings of vegis at night.