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Kali cracks me up. I love Alan Thrall. I didn't know him by name but I have used his tips to rehab. Power lifting is just about the safest sport usually but sometimes people use too many drugs or push themselves too hard... Or they were trained. I had some help from guys who are internationally competitive and have never had a single major injury with their whole lifting group. I miss lifting big. I probably won't ever get close to that again unless I decide to use drugs to get there.

You're killing me smalls. I need to tripple my income. FML

4th stall. Jelly like Santa's belly.

I'll check out his videos. Before I got bed rested the first time I was squaring 720x6, benching 315x6, and dead lifting either 375 or >500 depending on the set up of the bar.

Be affraid...

What are you having done Sean?

350 grams of protein was just enough at the time. I was 6'2" 265 and had a little bit of muscle. Competing in power lifting at the time so my body was pretty broken down every day. Was losing weight at 6000kcal a day.

I also wanted to shout out to Aaron. One time you mentioned you eat an apple and go for a walk to perk up. It does work better than coffee. I also have apples around and that helps when I'm not capable of controlling my sweet cravings.. In making progress on what I consider meager protien intake. I used to force myself into 350ish grams a day. I am not so afraid of losing gains if I go out drinking one night or miss a meal. I try not to, but I don't get dizzy like I used to if it was more than 3 hours and I haven't had >30 grams of protein.

But I made a list of things that are better now. My body is much more dense and I hold less surface water. So my veins is poppin. 32" thighs make your junk look so small. Even if you have an elephant trunk. Pants. Despite the arthritis my tendons are ok. They are probably strong eenough for what I lift where as before I had to stop lifting with intensity just to let my tendons repair. Now I can just lift at my limits without much fear of tearing.

Sean.. I don't even know how to explain how good loving myself is. It's a new feeling for me. It's amazing. Looking weight is humbling for me. I'm constantly reminded of how much muscle size I used to have compared to now. Strength too. I feel weak and small.

So here is something that sucks. I'm happy I lost 170 pounds. What makes me sad is still not liking how I look and knowing that I didn't see how bad it was. Stupid brain.

Aaaaaaaaand no big dogs showed up today. Sahweet!!!

I am become death, the destroyer of worlds.

Copped me some Versace, stuff makes women follow me around. Made the work wife's boyfriend get all weird and ask me what I was wearing. Roflmao Those are the priceless moments.

Lol! I felt naked without cologne so I ran to Macy's yesterday. :-)

Wore my baller custom suit yesterday in case bosses showed up. Have to sweat today so I wore my least attractive outfit and loafers today so I could move stuff.... Big bosses conning by today. F M L

Is there anything cool here? I'll be in Waterford. Right on the coast.

Well.... I'm a flight to CT. I got lucky and got a wing seat!

Not all of us are as accommodating my friend.....

Extreme hugeness of the dick is a serious illness. Sometimes I want to be in the same room with my lover.....

Hold on, are you challenging me?

Thanks. I like looking better and feeling lighter but I can't get over how small I feel. I used to be so much bigger and stronger. It's still tough to have perspective about how weak I was.

Also, in celebration for being down 170 pounds and keeping it off, I got some taco bell. Its the only shitty US style fast food I crave once and a while. I don't get drunk enough I for the castle any more.

Guess who is switching from enbrel to humera soon. Ha!

Methotrexate is chemo. I get to avoid that thankfully. It won't help in my case, at least that's what my doctor believes. I feel blessed that I don't have to take it. I purchased the softest beautyrest black hybrid(new line up) they make and then a base like yours but from another brand. I kind of wish I would have went with the tempur base..... But I'm not sad about my choice either way.